Monday, December 28, 2009

Presentation

28/12/2009
monday

Ms Himalah always told us n given a lot of comment about ours group assignment .We seen like not put effort to assignment ,everything done last time when Ms Himalah given a lot of time to do compare with others class.

Why we can't manage time as we can !

I don't want last minute job because i damn poor on my English language ,i need time to pratice pratice !!!

Pn Nik last assignment ....
so poor of my design ...as a group ,we need to arrange and decided together to cope the problem...!! We can't do the job by self without decided n comment as we r group...!!!

HAIZZzzz....

眼泪

星期六
26/12/2009

一起身已经是下午了,提到我要买的电脑就生气和pick off…!我是个读graphic design student ,当然是需要一部手提电脑来练习我的skill…!只靠家里那一部哥哥常常需要用的和多多问题的电脑,那我就等于跟读死书没有分别!

我知道家人们的钱有限,所以我的生活费和读书费用都是自己辛苦赚钱给的。我需要一部手题电脑是要家人帮我出钱先,而且我会还给家人们的当我有钱!家人是不会体谅下我,只是要我体谅你们!
如果你们不想出钱给我读书的,就别在当初一直叫我找学院读书!!

支持只是会用心而已,而不是用金…

我的脾气越来越粗暴,想找静意却怕她不回复。她是比别人更清楚我的人在以前,
我想告诉她我竟然是那么的软弱,我想哭却不敢那么放私的哭…眼泪每次都在我的眼睛里绕着当我想起我家人怎么对我…我告诉他们如果不要买的话,就别在我面前说三说四…我不是拿枪逼你们买…我硬嘴说自己会买…可是我知道我自己没有能力
静意……我真的很伤心很伤心

工作越来越不顺利,在人事中我越来越不会管理。那两姐妹竟然越来越过份以为自己很重要和脾气性格粗暴,也不把我放在眼里。我对她们仁慈,她们就对我粗暴。不是只是你们有脾气的,我也有的。我不希望那一天到来。

给你们两个忠诚的劝告

不是每个工作地方都是可以让你们这样放私的,也不是你们要发脾气骂人就骂人,不是你们要吃什么就吃什么,不是你们要像目头一样站在同一地方等顾客叫就站在同一地方。

我都不明白怎么你们总是要没大没小,自己做错东西又假装不知道当我告诉你们!我也不明白怎么要对我和一班工作人员发脾气当顾客对你们不好!我更不明白你们怎么要一起吃东西当很多顾客时!我最不明白怎么你们是要多多东西说当我叫你们做东西!

我体谅和看顾你们,你们却(吃着上)。看到你们我后悔叫你们回来工作!!

自私

25december 2009
星期五

圣诞节的正日竟然没有什么顾客!那也难怪,因为在星期五。

我看一部戏'巴不的爸爸',我觉得里面有一个角色'阿池'非常像我。他的骄傲,没有正真用心对他身边的朋友真有点像我!我自己不知不觉发觉自己是那个样子了…我怎么了!

Merry Chirstmas

24december 2009
thursday

今年的圣诞节不用那么闷,因为可以和TAR College classmates 一起庆祝。机会非常难的,因为明年五月我们就完毕了我们的certificate和我们也会继续的读自己想要的不同课目。

chirstmas steamboat party
JC 负责煮东西的任务竟然自己都迟到一个小时后才来…没有时间观念和责任的他竟然还埋怨我们…他和他的朋友们来…有几个帮忙他,有几个就在客厅坐…像很害羞的感觉…JC他们用两个小时的时间煮完…我就弄steamboat 的汤底…

大家都很饿的开餐咯!

Entertainment
poker牌游戏…男生输了就要脱衣跑…女生输了就找隔壁的邻居们说Merry Chirstmas …还有输的人要对另一个人说我爱你…我们也有喷泡沫的游戏和交换礼物…交换礼物我和Li Han 都拿都自己的…但是最后我们也互相交换…

Food n Drink COMMENT
Fried chicken ,frence fried ,nuggets 都不是很熟,让我怀疑JC 和他朋友的厨艺……失败
weges 更是隆的有那么黑……失败
汤底都不好喝和没有那种口感……失败
缺乏了酒……失败中的失败

今天的派对开心!

一个人我不会累

23december 2009
星期三

不懂在什么时候我已经变得喜欢一个人过我的生活。至少我不想像现在的生活,做什么事都要别人管,朋友们吵吵闹闹,家人骂骂咧咧,这样的生活真没有乐趣!

我今天一个人搭火车然后从KLCC走路去Pavolion…那种一个人的感觉总比跟朋友还来得爽快!在戏院看戏,朋友们总不能安静下来的…给我有自己的空间观看这一部电影吧!

见家长?

星期二
22/12/2009

晓婷载我回家,可是我们却到Cheras Selatan Jusco找她家人也买东西!今天是Jusco Member Day,凡是有J卡的顾客将可以获得折扣!

整间Jusco人山人海,每一间商店都非常的多人!我们去Old town meet晓婷的家人和亲戚们,我们在那里坐下等她家人,这时让我感觉我自己在见家长!

没有东西做的我,陪晓婷的姐姐妹妹表姐去买衣服…我在那一边看美女一边等她们试衣!晓婷的妹妹总让我觉得她一直在看着我…我会害羞咯!哈哈…她们更去买女人东西…这时我当然又好奇又害羞极了…

看到一个有折扣的皮包…有些觉得我的旧钱包是时候换了…可是我却没有买…伤心

责任

星期五
18/12/2009

当你在那时候选择我成为你的干哥时,我已经是十分开心和感激你能给我这么好的一次机会。你知道吗…但是我没有想到在你心目中是永远不会爱你的干哥的想法…而我偏偏就在你的游戏犯了规…竟然不知不觉的爱得你好深好深…结果我不能自拔!

看见你一天一天的改变,我都无法在你旁边阻止你因为我再也不是你心中的干哥。就算是朋友也没有那中能力!是我们之间的距离的差距真的很长很长,还是我自己的问题。我承认我接受不了被你狠狠地拒绝,所以我还害怕和失去信心对下一段恋爱。

我感到无奈因为我不再是你干哥…
不能给你劝告当你面对坏事情时…
不能够陪伴帮忙你当你需要帮助…
还有许许多多的不能…

曾经有一段美好的感情(哥妹)我没珍惜,
如果时间能够倒流回以前的话,
我会选择不会告诉你…我爱你,
永永远远的成为你干哥……

不再是我喜欢的她

星期四
17/12/2009

从朋友口中的她(也就是我们一直喜欢的她),是个已经改变了的女孩,弄到自己让我们觉得很堕落。当朋友都把她的坏东西模拟成一样时,我跟本没有想要阻止朋友的意义和理由,我还加入…乐在其中。

她何时变成了那个样子,可能她能告诉我(地球每天都在自专,人的性格当然也随着会改变)。可是这些全都是接口!我一直喜欢和追求的她,到底去了哪里,变了什么样的性格!

我不知道什么时候开始对她失去那种追求的心。我不知道我在朋友里说她的坏话是否对还是错。我不知道的事情还有很多很多!我不再期望自己抱着假希望,她这样做到底是为了什么!

你要改变你自己是你的事情,我是个外人阻止不到你…可是如果你对这样的改变很开心,我不能理和管因为我是外人…我只能恭喜你!

Comment for Assignment 3D-typographic

tuesday
15december2009


3D-typographic assignment had been completed last night n presented on this morning .

The hardness part we face in this assignment is the management of timing , the management of relationship group and the management of work sharing .

Management of timing
As we know that we're not have the same free time in ours own schedul because we not only have 1assignments , is a lot of assignments from different subject .So that ,sometime we r finished at last minutes or few people to still continue to do .

Management of group relationship
Once we r group ,then we should finished the work with group . Not means that somebody adsent when we doing the work then finally he/she get the mark with doing nothing .

Management of work sharing
When the leader have order the job for u,then u must be complete it on time n completely .Not going to give many kind of reason that about 'not free' 'not understand' . If u given the effective reason that u not free ,i think I can accept it .But a least u don't laying me that u not free is just for other personal things .N u don't really understand ,why u don't make a call or ask when u leave.

that r the hardness part I felt .

Sunday, December 13, 2009

问题多多

星期六
12/12/2009

今天去到工作的地方才知道阿杰和阿槟两个小孩都没做了。一个是要换工,另一个就被老板捉到他在工作时间时打机。

我自己觉得其实也不能怪他们,一个是人往高处所以才走,另一个是被老板带坏而造成他自己打机当老板不在的时候。其实全都被老板带坏,老板一定要有个好榜样让我们下属去跟随。我决不能接受和那些懒洋洋像小孩一样的思想的老板工作在一起,因为这样的老板会影响下属们的心。

我不知道老板为什么要我回来?是否要我看着老板的店和那班已经被老板影响的伙计们。我很难看着他们,因为我认真跟他们工作,他们却有不爽的态度。不骂他们,他们又很过份,骂了他们等下不爽走了,被老板骂的是我。我不知道怎么做。

为什么会没有像以前那么多客人?是因为老板的随便造成下属们也随便没有用心去做。今天我试喝了他们所谓的做弄水方式才知道为什么会没客人来。和写单的伙计们都不专业,谈天的谈天,坐着的坐着。当问题出现时,就很紧张一大堆的伙计们在弄一样东西,他们是否知道谁才是他们的阿头吗?没大没小!

没有眼看,告诉自己!

Struggle heart

thursday
10/12/2009

干妹的劝告

你就不要想太多咯,你都已经尽力了,只是刚好那时情绪不稳定。不会每一次都这样的,总有一天你可以做到很好的,也可以克服的…每个都有这样的过去,跌倒了就再爬起来。最重要你会爬起来,再接再励咯…

赖佩雯 (1:01 AM):
你知道你自己最差,你有真正去面对这个问题吗?如果我是班上最差的,我一定会很努力读书咯,不会给别人一直觉得我是最差的。有时不要把自己逼到太利害咯,也不要把自己的目标放到太高,失望高的是你自己而已。失败了就爬起来咯,每个人都会失败的…你一直追静意,失败这么多次,你还是要追…为什么你能那样做,
赖佩雯 (1:18 AM):
不用跟随我说的话啦,我只是不想你变成没有奋斗这样咯…虽然你失败了,可是你曾经有努力过咯…活到开心就可以了

我怎么能轻松的失去我的奋斗,要知我对没一件事情都有很高的要求。在每一次的比运动我都不能放弃当我开始了这个运动。我的人就是这样,对每一件事情都很认真处理,决不能不合我的要求!

我回来了…谢谢你佩雯我的好干妹!
如果没有你帮我我可能到现在还是失去奋斗闷闷不乐的家良!承诺过我成功的一天就是感激你的那一天。

想不到我也有被人安慰的一天。

Attitudes

09/12/2009
wednesday

My personal attitude is no good as I know . I am serious and responsible man on my everythings including friendships , family , lover and work.I know that somebody will no acceptable my attitudes as I friend of them .

A group assignments
If u r really not free n have a good reason, then I may acceptable u absent to do the assignment . But u don't told me the laying reason ,actually u play at home .

I don't really know your guys
people never tryed a dead before they would know .

But finally i have realize with my friends on day by day about that never mind n cold down .Because everybody include me have a same problem like them in future ,i also need they support n agree .Not make a annoy behind me .

Cry

08/12/2009
tuesday

This is the first time that I feel the tear is rounding inside my eye when I am doing my individual presentation on today .

I had been called eddie for a helped of elaborate my main point to a essay on yesterday .We done that at 12oclock more at midnight .

I feel sad n wanna cry when I asking lecturer about 'can I stop here because I lack of confident and memories' !! I not satisfed that I am just looking at the point and talk ,i believe that lecturer and my friends also boring and lost concentrated .

I want to cry but I can
my tear auto falling down
I am so foolishness

I think I can't keep continue to my studies as soon as possible ,because I can't follow what lecturer given ,Everthough assignments

I don't know who can I find once I need people help ,just vivian I can find but she not reply my message .
WHY....!!!

FRIEND IN YOUR HEART IS WHAT ESPECIALLY ME!!!

person who abnormality in KTM

07/12/2009
monday

i was overslept on yesterday n i can't went back to Genting Kkang on yesterday too .

In my plan ,i am surppose to go back on yesterday for prepare my assignment n presentation .

It is seen rush n exhausted to me?
NO

I'm thinks that my mother is right when she scold me on yesterday.Because whatever job she mention me to help her ,i'm also said "i can't !! Because i am busy n no time for my coursework." I think that i had hurt my mother about my rude behaviour n bad attitude . No time to help but i have time to go out with friends n online facebook ...!!

l am apolozige to my mother

When i in my way going back Genting Klang by taking train in today ,i saw a XXXman look like abnormality .He stading behind me n infornt of the XXXgirl while he still have a lot of space to stay ...

i saw theXXX girl was keep running to prevent the XXXman who is abnormality by using his thing keep knocking the XXXgirl behide of me .I not idea to help but I using my eye to focus the XXXman who is abnormality n give some place for the XXXgirl prevent.

It is damn shit for the XXXman ...!!!

SSSskytrex Adventure

06/12/2009
sunday

9.10 a.m.we r arrived Trm Pertanian Malaysia park ,Bukit Cahaya Shah Alam .

Six of us seperate with 2group to going by cars .Besides i have make sure that using my phone Garmin to search the way we going is not a wrong way .Unfortunately my ours friend showing the wrong way as we following at behide .It is different from my Garmin Map .But NVM, at least we can arrived the locations but not on time .Late...

We pay 3 dollar each person for getting in the park .Then we r waiting for the bus which is only to fetch customers n welcome to the locations of skytrex .

Put on a set of stuff of skytrex on my bodies ! That's not heavy but look like ugly once I wear in my bodies .

We play extremely adventure . It has 21section,each section have different challenge .It is hard because this game consist a lot of climb up the higher staircase , fly n jump over in section to section .

I challenge all the section as fast as I can, but I was keep blocking by the guest who r in font me .

This activities is damn nice...

After we r finished ours activities ,we decided to go Sunway for taking a PIZZAhut to ours lunch .U know i feel shy as i go there without change any clothes n bath ....

Dirty ....

Hami Birthday party

saturday
05/12/2009

这几个星期很多工课做的我
竟然得空到和别人出去庆祝
而就连母亲大人吩咐的工作
都拒绝…我真是坏孩子……

哈米瓜的生日
在GreenBox庆祝
每次和她们出我都玩得不爽
原因出在大家都没有
热情和尊重朋友的心
当每个人正独唱的时候
竟然没有支持者……

这些叫大家朋友出来癫吗?
不如我独自在家唱

闷……!

Laptop...

friday
04/12/2009

PC fair

I stop going PC fair since 2 year ago . That's because i nothing to buy since 2year ago ! Another reason is that place too complicated n messy .

But nowaday i have to go ,because i have to search the suitable notebook for my studies now .It is too complicated that i design something without notebook or computer .

I am a design student lo ...

The place of PC fair is to messy .A lot of people and staff shopping and sale . Of course there also have Pretty n sexy sale girl lo .

why so serious

02december2009
wednesday

today is the end of the Bm presentation that i wait very long time .Afterthat we discuss to go eddie house to do group discussion about the Role Play presentation .Only i is the early stay in eddie house for playing facebook n do my work by using his laptop .

wait and wait for li han n hui ying appear eddie house 1st, then turn to zack , sir li n JC . They 3fellow go n ate pizzahut then come when they r finished .

We not doing any discussion at eddie house ,coz we influence by the Intetnet n PS 2 .Only li han n hui ying doing their work .hahax....

For me i am serious guy...
but i ture myself to a happy guy...
thats y their told me Pk u had been changed ....

this is my chance

01december2009
tuesday

after class we go to jusso MD to do group discussion for our presentation Role Play .

For me i didn't like to go because i hate myself spend a lot of money compare with sem 1. I know that if i continues my life like that ,i will get poor as soon as possible .

BUT sometime that is does not means u say NO to refuse somebody,then everythings is SETTLE .

Life is not forever holding on ur hand only ,it will be run away or disappear .

Sms to my friends to get the handphone number on who was the girl i though i have a chance in Prom Night .
But my friends didn't reply my message .

Sad ,my chance had got ....

哪些朋友哪些感言

30/12/2009
monday

我越来越不会去看待我的朋友哪一些是真心朋友和出卖我的朋友。我已经好累好累因为你们出卖我不只是那一次,而是许多!我是不是做得不够好而要让你们要来出卖我和伤害我的心?我是你们的朋友!

你们这些朋友越来越让我觉得都不是真心的伙伴,我不能把我的心事和秘密告诉你们和你们分享。我很讨论那些曾经出卖我的朋友,难道我真的在你们心目中我只是个出卖共具

我对你们心灰意冷

朋友?笑话

Garden of Prom Night

29/11/2009
sunday

What can I describe on this Prom Night are BORING !! LIMITED FOOD PROVIDE !! JUST FOR COUPLES !! MANY THINGS ARE DISCONTENT !!!

Some people pay the fee for making theirs hairstyle ,makeup ,buy clothes ,buy ticket ....but at last their can't gain any partners , happy n enjoy on the party. That is the Prom Night !!!

I don't think so this kind of night can gain a partner if somebody afraid . Imagin that gentlemen n ladies wearing a nice clothes come to a party but fight with getting the food ... What is that !

My friends who want me to fetch r so excussive as I feel .They not finished to make up when The Prom Night is start on 5 o'clock .I just wait n wait then again ,n they take their time for taking photo . 'Do u know that we r late 1 hours already ' inside my heart doesn't tell them .

I also have wait them 1hours for taking photo again n doesn't mention with me When the Prom Night was finished .This time my eye was turned red n go inside search them n tell them 'Isn't ur guys not yet finishing to take a photo? ' 'ok,take how many photo as ur guys like.' Very angry !!!

The hole night I not gossip with them when we r going MD .

Work place ?

27,28/11/2009
friday n saturday

人家说没有一个工作地方是完全没有问题出现的。这是因为人类天生的特殊,也就是人心。没有人能保证一世的弟兄,也没有人能保证一世的夫妻。

这份工作是我熟悉的地方,因为我以前曾有在这儿做过一段日子。也尝试过这儿的人事是非常的复杂,关系也非常的不正常。我在这工作只能做我自己都不想做的东西而已。而我离开是因为我要继续读书和离开这事非之地。

但是我还是有回来帮忙当老板开到口,原因是因为那时我答应是因为我需要钱当作赚外块来付我的学费和费用。我一个人负担真得很累很累,我又不好意思向家人们开口,因为他们自己也需要钱来看病。

话说回来我工作这里,不用说我回来做苦力和废材。有人想拍我的马屁,有人想欺负我等等。以前的一向严肃的老板,现在的他都不知道怎么了,我觉得他很废材。他除了吃玩,我真的不知道他在想什么!

一间店去如果没有生意
老板是不应该怨天怨人
是要找办法来补救过错

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Golden Sun Bar

26/11/2009
thursday
被邀到Golden Sun Bar做支持者的我,
非常愉快和好奇那儿的地方是怎么样,
因为我之前去的RedZone Pub美女多!

因为读书有三个月没什么驾车的我,
架得非常的烂和危险由其是在晚上,
子康他们都说我差一点就撞到那车,
可是我却察觉不到自己是否有这样,
我只知道我在U 传的时候出事而已。

都怪添龙架那么快我只好跟快啊…!

这个bar有点小间和非常多uncle们,
我跟本找不到一个年轻妹妹在喝酒,

我,子康和秉康像在喝闷酒,
添龙就很癫一直喝一直喝酒,
灌了他朋友后就来灌我们喝,
他硬说自己等下要驾车回家,
不要喝那么多可是最醉的人,
就是他而已…哈哈!

其实我自己也有点醉意的感觉,
只是我清楚知道自己是驾车来,
我要安全的送自己和朋友回家,
我就没喝那么多了…

彩玉她们跳舞真利害,
利害是因为她们做到的我却不能,
跳舞结束后彩玉应该是喝了点酒,
竟然抱着燕珊哭了起来因为跳舞,
添龙自己都照顾不了自己在睡觉,
没有醉的我都不知道怎么办是好,
只能在每个需要哭的人送上纸巾,
这已经是我最好的安慰办法咯…

彩玉…
我告诉你…无论别人怎么看不起你
最重要的是你自己别看不起你自己
别管别人的目光和批评…
重要的是你知道自己需要的是什么
别人越是看不起你…
你就让别人看得起你…
只要你别放弃…别灰心!

静意
今天喝茶时我终于明白一件事,
自己为何在你心中是个失败者,
原来我不会像添龙的朋友那样,
会玩得很疯癫,会有那种帅气,
曾经我还傻傻的会为你而改变,
可惜我不管我怎么改变自己,
你永远永远都不会给机会我,
我自己我为什么输得那么可怜…

我醉了…

PizzaHut Day

25/11/2009
wednesday

I have full enough memorize and full enough practice on my BM Pengucapan Umum but unfortunately Puan Niadia have absence the class without any mention .

We are wearing formal wear and sit on the class waiting until 10.15am then we leave the class .

We decided to go Genting Klang for take pizzaHut as ours lunch with zack ,eddie ,annis and me.

Started from when i have learn to use a lot of money on my life .Isn't follow from my friends or i already changed .

Haiz...

Help lilian they to design a wedding card for their friends .They are calling me to help but they not accompany to work fast ,because they just watching movie . Unfortunately I am the person who want to improve my design skill ,so I will thanks to them to give me a chance . Finished the wedding card almost 2o'clock ,i still have to attend class tomorrow .

I'm Not holding the second chance

24/11/2009
tuesday

Miss Kasturi same like before ,the attitude is lazy lazy LAZY ...!!She call us to do the research without any brief .If we finished ours reseach then what is the next things we should to do !!

We go Jusco to do ours research and i have bought my belt and chirstmas hat .
We going class with wearing the chirstmas hat , so paiseh...

I'm thanks a lot to Miss Himalah to give a second chance to the presentation of The Impromtu Speak .
But i'm apologize to Miss Himalah because i'm not holding this second chance seem to be important .That is because i lose my control to prevent myself go out with my friends on my free time .
That's why my impromtu presentation gain a lowest marks which is 9.5/20 .
So sad i gain fail ...

But that's because i not put my hard to get the good job

Rush Time

23/11/2009
monday

It was trouble because I have insomnia yesterday mid-night .I don't have any Idea about why I will gets insomnia .I only know that something have always surrounding on my mind . it is vivian .haiz ....
I don't think so I still have a feel on her but I'm sure that I still can't without her

I started my journey of going back to my dorm ,Genting Klang at 6 o'clock morning by taking train and bus.

the cold temperature is too cold Inside the train .I'm the one who felt I have visit on my Christmas Day.

Come late the class because I have to prepare my presentation n assignment today.Almost 945am I get in the class but I had been chosen to talk without any preparing .

It so bad in my presentation because I lack of confident to force .This time the lectures Miss Himalah is so serious .When I look at her face I already feel that I must not good .haiz...

Hand up the Cd cover assignment to Pn Nik on today.I am not yet finish to paint and print .But I can handed it before the deadline .

Cover Album
idea&concept 6/15
arrangement of layout n creativity 12/20
colouring and overall design 6/10
design process 15/20
web page 13/15
creativity 17/20

total 69/100

very poor

Where is the luck goes?
My phone memory had been brok

房间

22/11/2009
星期日

VERSUZCOL
虽然彩玉她们舞蹈比赛不能进半决赛,
可以我觉得她们已经尽力了去付出,
散发出一股不放弃的精神去完成比赛,
虽然是输了但是却出现另外的新天地,
我猜她们应都感受的到男朋友的关怀,
朋友之间的支持和关心及老师们的话,
这一切都是另外的新天地能体验到的。

VIVIAN
平时想见一面都很难的我们,
今天终于有次见面的机会了,
我第一次坐她的车让我想吐,
我不敢对她想以前那样细心,
因为我怕她对我反感况且,
她的干哥哥都在会为她操心,
而我可以说只是个配角而已,
我对自己说过如果能每天都
知道她的一切包括她喜怒哀乐,
我临愿做那个配角…

我没有不开心她没有和我拍照,
而是不开心我在她心目中地位,
她还是把我们的距离保持远远,
一句简单的问题
怎么没有你和我一起拍照的,
她却永远觉得我还在对她有意思,
我只不过要和她做一身的朋友。
口这样说…自己却做不到…

吃东西的时候我不能够和她坐,
因为我不想她对我有反感的意思,
就连望着她我也是要透过镜子的反射…

房间
第一次进自己喜欢的人的房间,
当时她不懂正在收拾什么东西,
一会儿我们才进去她的女桂房,
她的房间真的是堆满很多灰尘,
我送她的礼物被看代成不重要,
因为她把我的礼物和别人送的,
情人礼物堆在一起,
而我以前送她的一瓶星星粒纸,
我在她房间里是找不到的…
这一瓶星星粒纸里面有很多意义,
我应该向她说过…

Not satisfed again

20/11/2009
thursday

Used many days to design and design again ,reason is I not satisfed my design.

Malacca Zoo logo
idea&concept 6/10
creativity 6/10
design process 15/20
rationale 5/10

total 32/50

BM presentation

wednesday
18/11/2009

I have take my formal wear and set up my hairstyle to attend BM presentation .I feel nervously and exhausted today for my presentation .Unfortunaly Puan Nadia have given us examination for tatabahasa paper then continue ours presentation at 10o'clock.

I have prepared what presentation need on today by yesterday night .At then end continue presentation on next week...

Go eddie house with hui ying to finishing our logo design assignment .

The raining is so heavy today ...
It's so cold...

Not satisfed

tuesday
17/11/2009

Im not happy and satisfed for my assignments marks by marking with Miss Kasturi .
She given 12/20 marks only and told me 'sometime we don't understand the artists artwork without rationale'
What was the comment her given to me !!

Actually I'm don't have free time to go to watch movie on today .Because I have a presentation about BM on wednesday, assignment deadline on thursday , part-time job on friday n saturday ,sunday got meeting ,next monday is presentation and deadline for another assignment and presentation on next wednesday too .

It are the big trouble to me if I keep my life become a busy man .
I will lose all my friends n can't thinking about her .

Bad Day

monday
16/11/2009

I'm still feeling upset for yesterday night about my friend have told me the true suddenly .I can't accept what have my friend told me about but it's too late.

My attitude is like that .I will taking a small things to modify until that become complicated .

Wrong Sensitive

Saturday
14/11/2009

I lazy to do my assignment that which is hand up on next week... i know the time is rush and not enough for me to do my 2presentation and 2assignment ,but i infect by computer and television...
That is the big trouble to me...!!!

I'm miss answered vivian calls this afternoon for how to take 1119English essay sijil .So I call back immediately as I can, but she's not answering my phone as she's driving .At that moment I started many question and confusing in my mind about what happened on she .

l'm so foolishness to made myself Nervously....Persistent made me fault fault fault !!!!

C'mon kar leong,
stand up without her
I CAn

Is this calls feel?

friday
13/11/2009

l'm disappointed n confused that I had saw a girl who is can increasing my heartbeat on today at the same bus we took....

I saw her with her boyfriend ....
Walking together get the bus ....
But I never said HELLO to her ....
I scare l'll be the disturb man ....
So I choose to keep quite....
I know her boyfriend saw me....
But he not told her about me....
I know the meaning and I ....

She is sitting towards from me with 2person blocking...!!!How come my heartbeat will increase when I saw her?That's impossible to me...
this must be somewhere wrong
on me...

INNOCENCE !!!

thursday
12/11/2009

I already feel disappointed and exhausted to my courseworks , assignments ,n presentation in 2nd semester .All of the lectures have suddenly became serious and quite strict to all of us ...!!

Miss Nik ~Basic Layout n Logo Design
She is a good lecture but quiet strict .
She always mention that 'redo redo ' to someone who is not satisfied her from the coursework.

Miss Kasturi~ Colour n Design
She also a good lecture but lazy a bit .
She also given many comment when student finished then she said not satisfied for her while she just mention to student few time only about how to do.

Miss Naida ~ Bahasa Melayu
she baru balik dari bersalinan anak saja
oleh itu saya no comment

Miss Jacquelin ~
Miss Hamara ~


Annis
I swear I didn't saw anything inside the car this afternoon .... I just playing witnesses Mona only loz.....

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

My Broken Presentation

tuesday
10/11/2009

I'm feel exhausting and lack of confident for my Improtu Short Talks presentation today .It's so trouble if someone prepared on last night and present it today .Unfortunally I am the one who was prepared last night .Reason is I have so many work and assignments to do .Actually I leave all of my work n assignments to do on last minutes .But still have reason is I am not clearly understood what have lecture given about .My english is so poor!!!

This presentation making me upset and disappointed even lecture given me comments about 'my sound is loud enough,point not clear,not memorial....'
It's so damn ....!!!
Still have next round to present...!!!

I always told myself 'i should improve my english language to talk and to understand each basic word'
But I can't without any affort and heart.

My Friendships in College

Monday
09/11/2009

My friends always around me once I'm facing trouble even at my coursework , assignments or personality problems .

Thanks all of my friends

My neighbour

08/11/2009
sunday

Wherever we stay we can't live without neighbour .They are the people who live nearby .

My family and I live in terrace houses, and in front of our house is a rows of apartment .Our house is somewhere in the middle ,so we are surrounded by other houses.

Right next to my house on the right is a family consisting of a adult couple and their two young children.Unfortunally the parents look like luxuries and some proud attitudes .

It's difficult if want their help I think..

celebrated birthday2gether贝贝

07/11/2009
saturday

I would like to go Culbbing on today night with my friends in my plan .unfortunally I have to attend my friend 贝贝birthday celebration dinner at cheras steamboat restaurant .

It can be making a compare between culbbing and dinner ,i means is cost.

More than7 o'clock, chee ho start to fetch me by 贝贝car .Then we should want jun jun and move 2gether with 2cars which is already fetch [kent yi ,orange ,voilet ,me,ban eng ,贝贝]

We start to move to Cheras steamboat restaurant ...That's place actually I been before with my another friends...

Thanks for all of yours guy treat me eat steamboat while my birthday had pass...

Change locations to voilet house to celebrate again and eating cake once we r full enough eating steamboat .

Hahax ...
贝贝present is so special n awesome
hahax....

hair colouring

06/11/2009
friday

go SUNGAI WANG with kent yi to colouring hair at jun jun learning college 'snifp'by bus.

It's surprise for me when I walk around in Snifp College.Because it's not too small and not too large

I am taking dark brown to my hair colour because I'm the teenage who is not allows from family to colouring hair on nowadays .
kent yi choose dark red to be his hair colour .

After we finished hair colouring,the result is I can't see any colour in my hair. I think that because I chosen the colour which is not strong for me

Seri Rampai Night Market

thursday
05/11/2009

v[JC,eddie,li,hui yin, li han ] have decided to go to Seri Rampai Night Market at 7 p.m. when v r finished class .

Had been 4month I stays here, but I'm the 1st time came this night market. It look like awesome n a lot of people walks around in night market. The street is longest but very jam with crowd of people.

I have already ate 板面 which is one of the famous food and delicious by my friends told me. I was feel embarrassed about I wrong ordered 板面 in 糖水档 lox ,hahax....them laugh on me ....
the attitudes of 糖水档boss was so made us angry n unhappy....

he want us to leave when my food is not coming yet ....damn service....

Walk around in night market and bought a necklace to myself for my birthday present...so pity lox..hahax

ate 臭豆腐 with eddie...
compared with my hometown ,my hometown 臭豆腐 is damn good n not good smell than here....

one day was finished to play....
still have many assignments n coursework to do....

My 20th Birthday 2009

04/11/2009
wednesday

Today is my 20th birthday, unfortunately I have to attent BM class during my birthday time . it was so complicated and disappointed for me nobody'll celebrated with me in my mind.

Suddenly [eddie,zack,annis,mona,yan yi ,chui yi] had decided to go WANGSA WALK to make a birthday celebration for me after finished class.A the path,[JC,alice ,hui yi ,li han, li ]want to join us also to WANGSA WALK.But li have to finished his gymnastics class 1st.
If's so pleasantly surprise for me !!

So funny things have happen to us r about we have to get in yan yi toyota car with eleven person-!! that's awesome if we know magic then we can get inside. Hahax...at the end all gentlemen have to take taxi to go ,ladies stay inside the car and go.

We have chosen Popeyes fast food restaurant to ours celebration location. We ate ,played ,chated , and taked photo like crazy in Popeyes n Wangsa Walk shopping mall .Elaine also come to congratulation me because I am birthday baby^_^

My closer friends in college have sent me a present about ...
Annis send a beautiful phone吊饰品
Eddie n Zack send PCgame Cd
And I am very thanks to all of my friends who have celebrated with me n spending their time to celebrate with me, money to pay for my food ,spiritual to chosen gift for me
THANKS ...!!

Finished celebration,i have play snooker with eddie, zack, li, JC at TBR. I am not playing this since 2year . I have become weakness already loz .

it's so happy in my birthday this year
because I can accompany with my classmates to celebrated

TNB

TNB

03/11/2009
tuesday

Mona was so innocence ,because she always become ours bully person .I was so sorry to her...coz I also have join in.

Unhappy their called me cheat man,but that's nothing for me because I did wrong first, sorry for everything .

Along with NEGARA GUGU ,Mr.wong had been post a new short video to youtube which is name by TNB . I'm so proud with Mr. wong about his brave .

I was so disappointed for TNB that no electrical supplying at my dorm area which is name by Prima Setapak during I was rushing my coursework . It was so damn for me,because it no electrical supply when u have my idea n feel to design and did my coursework .

Unfortunately some of the building and my place which is block A have electrical supplying during that time.So many people was so angry about this cases have to happen at the time that not befitted to everybody .

Lucky GOD have given a rain to us to prevent we felt hot and trouble ...

My birthday is on tomorrow 04NOV, I felt disappointed about no one have a heart to celebrated with me... I hope I can receive many many gifts and her blessing ....I want to cry...but I can't ....because I already take this kind of cases to normal.

Because I am the man who walk alone

请原凉我

02/11/2009
星期一

老远一早从hometown去college,
竟然到达了才知道class had cancel ,
我的天啊!我只好回宿舍睡个觉后,
才去上下午的课……

和美银搭火车
和她约好七点早上在火车站集合,
她竟然还比我早到达火车站等我,
真不好意思第一次同行就让她等,
在她带领中我们搭七点二的火车,
这时间的这班火车果然不是很满,
所以我是第一次搭不拥挤的火车,
在这段烦忙上班族的时间当里。

遇见珑珑
完毕了class后,搭巴士回宿舍,
我突然遇见珑珑,
她比我慢上巴士而且还坐前面,
坐在后面的我不能肯定那是她,
因为我和她也蛮就没见过面了,
就算有我们也还没看清楚对方,
的样貌……

其实我很想等她下巴士后,
我可以有个机会送她回家,
还想送她越过马路撑雨伞,
想在一边送她回家一边和,
她聊天……我想认识她多点……
可是我只是想却没有行动,
我感觉她在我后面当回家时,
我已经故意放慢我的脚步,
可惜我想她一定是也像我,
同时放慢脚步当我放慢……
看见她进入了,
我才离开……

身为支持者的我

01/11/2009
星期日

VERSUZCOL
今天是彩玉队的跳舞初赛,
我身为彩玉朋友的一份子,
在忙碌的时间都需要抽身,
去参加支持她的一份心意。

本来以为彩玉载的我,
没有准备好我的行装,
因为她不会路到火车站,
所以我打消了这个念头,
突然来载我的竟然是添龙!

我在想没关系不要麻烦人家,
因为自己晚上可以搭火车回。

出发到SUNWAY路途不算长,
况且添龙的飞车速度都不错,
所以很快就能到达,
在车上的人都吓到。哈哈……

两点多开始比赛的她们,
一定很紧张……
我和子康帮她们录下来,
添龙秉康则做啦啦队,
整场都很HIGH,
可是MC看起来没那么好……

This call family ,huh !?

30/10/2009
friday
Everytime i'll felt upset when a week was past.That's because i have to go back home with I can't found a true family love,concern,or whatever when i cames back home.....

My home is properly different with my other friends ,everthough my neighbor or my relative .i felt very very disappointed today once I'm going back home .

I wish I can stay longer at outside which is far from here and gain some freedom or authority .

I think I have already changed
What I have done & want
disappointed n complicated life
always around my life and mind

Stay cold and keep silent
think back what I done
did I wrong ?
I can't differentship
between wrong n true
I lost myself

Thursday, October 29, 2009

BRJ MAMAK

BRJ mamak restaurant

29/10/2009
thursday

After finished lectures class,
I coincidence met Amanda at the path of DK ABF to DK ABA when both us are chated with friends. At the same time,we just said hello n keep continued ours own job.

We are going to the BRJ restaurant to have ours lunch n did ours work near wangsa maju once we are finished lab.
We going by bus with eddie,zack ,mona,annis,yan yi ,and me...li li n jc are going back home to did their work...

They said BRJ is the famous place for crowds of people to drink.

We are so crazy at there la
because I am crazy guy
hahax

argument with friend

Argument with friend

28/10/2009
wednesday

felt so earlier & so cold when I woke up this morning . Reason is because have to attent lecture class at 8am.

I waiting bus to college with eddie,unfortunatly we wait and wait again,at the end they were not bus came around. Time was running up by looking my watch to 845am,bus was came.

Many students were went to college At the morning on that time.Stand area & seat area were full by the students.

Actually we had been decided to play game at cc after finish class.Unfortunatly we have to cancel the plan because I have many coursework to do,eddie has no mood to go .

Ones we decided to go back, mona &eddie went to CITC center to found picture & info for the exercise with me.

I started argument with eddie with a smaller things on the path we were going to CITC center.I felt sorry to everything for eddie.

We still can joked and chated after we finishing ours argument.Mona was so inculpable person between eddie and I when we argu with contonese language.

argument end...!!!

that's was so bad luck today
my umbrella was broke by the stronger wing when raining heavy on the path going back dorm.

16dollar for which umbrella I was just open 3time ,felt so sadness!!

I was felt so trouble & lost myself with my exercise which have to hand up on tomorrow and next week.That's were too many things I not yet done.

have a dinner at downstairs 大炒restaurant with kent yi. I had chosen 千岛猪趴饭to my dinner,kent yi chosen 奶油猪趴饭.Actually my one is using miyones to cook,nothing special. one thing special on me was I am the first time ate,delicious...80%...hahax

still have to started my exercise when I finish my dinner...QUICKLY !!!

wat goes around comes around

27/10/2009
tuesday

人都是为了有利益的事情而哲米,
这些人永远都不会体会别人心情,
因为他们只是会为自己利益出发,
从朋友那拿尽利益后就换别继续,
我怎么会有这样的朋友在我身边!

对这些朋友我感到很失望,
有时候真的全不是我要算,
而是朋友们太过分的态度,
让我无法忍耐有这些朋友!

社会就是这样,
童年时大家称为弟兄,
年轻时大家称为死党,
都那么简单
但社会上的黑暗地带是我们
无法预测的危险地带

popeyes louisiana kictchen




26/10/2009
monday

After finish the evening class,
me and eddie went to jusco,
for renew his PSP version5.00

We searched the game shop as
we arrived jusco,wangsa maju .
We started ours new adventure
been to wangsa walk by taken taxi as we got the info to knew that, there has a game shop is selling kind of this.

Eddie pay for taxi fee with cash...!

Eddie had finish to install that kind of software ,then we went Popeyes restaurant to have ours lunch.

That all were perfect when I first time saw!

area clean
service nice
without tax
food is good

Actually Popeyes is familiar with others fast food restaurant ,they also selling chicken,burgers .But they famous spicy chicken&burgers .Besides they food is healthy with the fresh vegetable .

I like it...!!!!


心情还是一样

25/10/2009
星期日

由于昨天晚上迟睡了些,
今天也要早起的我真累,
因为要和万英他们飙歌,
一想到飙歌我就觉得闷,
因为都在每个月里几次,
你说闷还是不闷啊……!

不知怎么我的朋友,
在每次的约会里都,
没有拍过照片留念,
其实拍照也是好事。


可以记念着朋友靓仔靓女的样子,

可以在年老回忆流逝的愉快样子,
三四五……由朋友来说吧……哈哈

个性火爆

24/10/2009
星期六

今天突然转性的我竟然早醒,
目地是为了帮助脚痛的妈妈,
打扫家里和做些简单的家务,
可是却让我这不懂性的孩子,
觉得被吩咐地像一位工人样,
但是我也没做出任何的反勃,
因为妈妈不舒服也还得照顾,
照顾我们家人的饮食和衣装,
真让叫人感动的话说不出来。

可是我今天却不知道怎么了,
感到心中正被一团燃燃的火,
燃烧着……有如所谓的火烧心!

电脑里的illustrate CS3软件用不到,
妈妈又一直在我耳边吩咐我做东西,
加上在烦脑着今晚和朋友们的约会,
静意所给的女性号码也是个冒充货,
去减头发的我在那傻傻的等了很久,
这一切一切真的让我烦到要发狂野!

首先我找来了我的母亲'开刀',
因为她在我很烦的时候出现,
我只是不耐烦的向她出言不遂,
后来用电话发信息给静意小姐,
说她故意还是无心给个假号码,
我们竟然辨论起来都说自己对,
最后因为这小姐很小气不说理,
我只好让步的说我自己错完吧!

熔熔的火气还没消的我,
对每件事都感不上兴趣!

林峰来马造势
和子盛他们喝茶的事罢了后,
就答应和智浩她们去看林峰,
林峰看起来并没有什么架子,
因为林峰他也蛮准时的到达,
女孩男孩都为林峰尖叫起来,
林峰他真的很帅气十足!

回家后的火还没完完全全消,
就连妈妈简单一句去了哪来,
我都忍不着自己向她喷起火,
一整天的心情很不好!

在朋友中的我

23/10/2009
星期五

朋友
到底我在你们大家心目中,
是位怎么样子的一位朋友?
大家是否觉得我已经变了?
还是觉得我正在假装虚伪?
我自己也搞不清楚要什么!

笑容
每天我都嘻嘻哈哈的笑容,
说什么话都被人看成没理,
嘻哈的笑容让人觉得恶心,
到底是否让大家感到快乐?
还是在让大家感到不愉快?

其实
我真的已很努力去演套戏,
我很努力去证明我是坏人,
我很忧疑去证明我不爱她,
我已很努力让大家讨厌我,
我已很努力的让大家开心,
可是大家却吩咐我去安静,
或者说我很吵很烦躁不安。

时间
可以证明我正在改变当中,
可以证明我虚伪的嘻哈哈,
可以让大家知道我是坏人,
可以证明我是个很快乐也,
很喜欢弄些噪音带给大家。

我不喜欢解释我所做的事情!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

矛盾之心

23/10/2009

一段还没落实的爱情,
突然发生在我生活上,
有时候我会觉得矛盾,
有时候也会感到害怕,
害怕和矛盾在这爱情,
害怕我自己不能接受,
矛盾在爱情的她与她。

虽然在爱情的她与她,
她是个我很想拥有却,
在事实决不能够拥有,
爱情的她互相不熟悉,
却让我觉得她很和谐,
很容易进入我的世界。

阿恩
昨晚和阿恩聊了很久,
我觉得我差点就犯错,
她让我不知觉中了解,
她让我不知觉中爱昧,
她让我不知觉中着迷,
可是我还坚持的逃避。

为什么已经改变逃避了自己,
还是改变不了我自己的本性。

今天上网看到她留言给我,
矛盾自己到底需要些什么,
我对她有不想理睬的感觉,
最后也选择了理会她留言。

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

买菜做steamboat记




21/10/2009

由于昨晚和健毅说好要弄吃,
所以我们想来想去只有一样,
一样食物是最适用我们味口,
那就是steamboat了!

八点多醒来到宿舍楼下买菜,
应该是我迟来巴刹选购疏菜,
我觉得这儿巴刹没那么多人,
比起我家那儿的少一半人吧!

也可能在这儿居住的人,
习惯大多数都在外面吃,
或者嫌麻烦不懂得煮饭,
所以都没有年轻人买菜,
那像我这热情的家伙呢!哈哈

我在这巴刹观测了许久,
一开始以为自己进错了,
因为竟然有荬吃的档口,
可以想像到这巴刹的宽度!

我买了

伊面 RM2.20 1 包
鱼丸 RM3.00 24 粒
猪肉丸 RM2.00 8 粒
腐竹 RM2.00 14 片
玻璃生菜 RM3.70 1 斤
鸡蛋 RM2.70 10 粒
调味块 RM2.70 1 盒

RM18.30


一开始我们弄熟四粒鸡蛋,
然后准备疏菜和鱼丸等等,
健毅跑去和晓盈她们借碗,
他回来了就开始俊男厨房。

这一餐真的很美味很满多,
吃得我们都很饱很饱!!


爱情
现在的爱情不能单靠勉强的,
健毅这家伙一直把我推介给阿恩,
我都快晕快呼吸不到了呢!
因为他每次每拨一封电话给阿恩,
都会在她面前提起我
有多好,有多配,
其实我不是个理想情人,
我把爱情看成顺其之然,
从不期待有新的爱情出现在我,
我一直在等待一个机会一个人,
虽然我不再知道她的事情,
因为她有心或无心不让我知道,
所以我也不勉强什么,
只能够等待她……

对不起……

我的成绩

20/10/2009

由于Ms Kasturi class又再次cancel了,
所以我们选择到jusco吃Mc Donald
Anis,Mona,eddie和我都剩搭巴士去,
我们先买了我们需要的design用具,

才再去吃Mc Donald

Mc Donald推介有精美的杯赠送后,
的确是吸引了许多的顾客前来购买,
这当然也吸引了今天的我,哈哈!

要叫一份large的Mc Donald加两块,
才能拥有一款在不同星期不同颜色,
的杯子!
叫了这么大份的食物,
害到我吃不完要打包!

今天竟然从朋友口中,
得知成绩已出芦的消息,
所以我们快快上网看看,
我呢……就靠小晓婷的,哈哈
成绩还蛮理想,

Semester 1 year 1
Art Appreciation C
Basic Software C
Study Skills C
Reading n writing C
Graphic Design Basic B
Drawing Basic B

Gymnastics 2 S

回宿舍清理我的房间和
从新摆放!
很有满足感!哈哈

非常不好意思

18/10/2009

彩玉拨电问我要不要出去喝茶,
为了帮依明和湘元这俩位寿星,
庆祝他们都巧在同一天的生日,
就是十九号!
刚好今天我晚上回去我的宿舍,
而麻烦到添龙和彩玉带着子康,
载送本人我回一段慢长的道路,
我很不好意思因为他们的载送。

谢谢你们,已经很进如深夜了,
还要把我这大少爷送回我宿舍,
虽然我自己都没有那么的伟大,
我很内疚我自己的性格和自私,
其实我没有好的东西带给大家,
反醒……反醒……

话说回来也要写写今天的日记,
参加这个派对的人数也不缺少。

从我家出发由添龙载我,
到达彩玉的练习舞蹈中心,
载了她和办托一切事情后,
我们再载另个寿星仔湘元,
开始往我们目地路道出发,
直奔到Taman Equire park的
Station One Cafe

当我们到达时,
人已经聚集了,
其实是我们迟到,哈哈!

这是俩位寿星公

我是偷拍的……哈哈

和她
我不知怎么对她不理不睬,
一直都忧疑我们之间的关系,
其实是永远不会发生的关系,
我是要把这段关系看成重要,
我这固执的人就是这个样子。
这个晚上在派对的我,
没有想对她说一句话,
我的心总是对自己说,
我不能……我不能……
其实我自己需要的是什么,
我都到现在还搞不清楚!

想不到
怎么现在还有不给钱的人,
竟然叫了食物不给钱就走,
那个家伙到底是
哪位!!

washing face

17/10/2009

今天为了洗脸而放弃了,
和朋友约会去飙歌的事。
不知道飙歌是否成为了,
年轻一族的娱乐之地呢?

我的朋友
当他/她们有钱或有空时,
第一首选的地方就是飙歌,
我也知道飙歌是可以减压,
可是都不用天天都挂口里,
虽然真的是很爽!哈哈

洗脸真痛
一个大男人的我去洗脸,
大家应该不会觉得奇怪,
在这次的洗脸过程中,
竟然比上次快多了呢!
可是还是很痛!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

14/10/2009

今天上了一堂蛮有资深的课,
其实今天只不过是上国语,
可是老师却灌输我们知识,
老师给我们带来许多知识,
有关于些政治上,
也有关于生活上。

贪污
许多人说国家都在贪污,
但是当你深入的参透中,
其实……
如果没有人贪污,
就不回有人付钱
相反的,
如果没有人愿意付钱,
也没有人愿意贪污啊!
可是有些人却不知道,
自己是被逼还是习惯,
总会用一些手段贪污,
有些贪污的人是主动恐吓,
但是有些贪污的人却被逼。

正所谓
所有的乌鸦都是一样黑

本来说好看戏的我们,
却因为一些事情取消。

自私
到底人都是不是自私自利,
我能看出人于人之间的面具,
我能体会到人的虚伪不诚恳。
我有对你们自私过吗?

晚餐后,
我和健毅过去阿莲的家,
刚好阿苏也在,
我一个人在客厅发呆,
过后第一次进她们的房间,
觉得很复杂,哈哈。

13/10/2009

不知道在哪个时候,
也不知道在哪个地方,
开始失去了你的感觉,
也开始画不出你的模样,
到底我是怎么了,
我是不是开始遗忘你。

我非常不满我自己,
已经成熟年龄了我,
怎么还是不会想,
现在的我到底需要,
什么!

每天过着带小孩的生活,
没有主见没有成熟想法,
让我不能够接受这一切,
可能是我的要求太高了,
对不起!

12/10/2009

今天终于有上些课了,
面对新老师新的一课,
真的让我很不习惯,
不习惯和新的老师不熟,
不习惯和自己课目不熟。

今天上了listening n speaking,
老师是Pn.Him一位印度女人,
她给了我们几个题目后,
叫我们一个一个presentation,
看到这样的我,
就有感到紧张,
因为英语的不好,
加上连说都不熟,
所以才感到紧张,
最后也成功我的presentation。
老师说我有一巴响亮的声音!
我自己就是随随便便两道屁!

由于早放所以我们到TBR吃东西,
也是我们几个,
eddie,annis, mona,zack,li
过后豪和宝宝也来加入,
突然下起了大雨,
害得我们失去了美好的座位。

下雨的路边小贩们,
都抱着一脸哀伤的心情,
因为老天不作美,
看着他的的心情况真悲哀……

回去上接下来的课,
可是老师又没出席,
唯有搭巴士回家。

一个人生活也不错啊,
今天的晚餐一个人吃,
我独自在那餐馆吃,
好像被人以为是个傻瓜……

11/10/2009

今天醒来后病情已经好转了些,
所以可以和智浩她们支持映晨,
晓婷来载我和智浩后到voilet家,
万英已经在她家当我们到达时,
我们全部由voilet驾她的swif载。

到达leisure mall,
映晨的家人已经帮我们留了位子,
智浩和万英都说要吃Mcdonal,
打包回去位子吃的她们,
却觉得有些不好意思就到外面吃。

等了半小时多,
歌唱终于开始,
由一号到十号,
映晨是拿二号,
她们都说一号的很利害,
昨天的比赛她拿很高分,
今天的她唱的`答案',
我觉得很好听啊!
可是一号却进不了三强。

映晨因为她口咙不舒服,
结果也进不了三强!
但我觉得映晨这次输了,
也不用那么伤心,
因为失败乃成功之母,
当一个人把失败当作经验,
就能慢慢的了解自己失败,
下次就能当饭吃咯!哈哈

结束时有个蓝色连身skirt女孩,
突然坐在我前面阻挡我的视线,
晓婷她们说她是温力铭的妹妹,
温小愉!

逛街遇到温力铭!

和她们去吃板面,
也很久没这样的生活了,
哈哈

我也变有变肥了吗?
我都不知道呢!哈哈

拒绝和彩玉她们的唱k派对,
独自搭火车回我的宿舍,
眼看又要搭ktm的我就晕了,
怎么那么多人和那么粗鲁,
我在排对等火车来,
火车一到我竟然被挤入,
真的是粗鲁!
不明白明明就有位子,
怎么不站进去给别人进嘛!
还有个马来女孩说,
syabah lah,
masuk erok erok sikit ,
nanti orang jatuh,bagaimana!!

搭巴士回genting klang,
巴士叔叔很好人,
竟然在行人天桥下放我们,
但是我们也没有使用天桥,
直过马路,哈哈!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

习惯一个人

今天银威来健毅家,
然后我们一起到中学拿回English language-1119 sijil.
到达中学才知道原来是PMR exam,

难怪那么多人在校门等。

中学也没有什么变化当我毕业后,
我们赶紧到office那拿我们的东西,
银威竟然连office都忘记了在哪里,
由于我们没带到我们的exam slip,
所以工作人员有些不满意,
过后我们自己找名字跟她说。

听说english paper的作文是给外国cambridge改的,
所以难免会比较严格,
我也拿下E而已,
我们三个我算是最差,
有些不开心.

不知道怎么每次很有心想做一件事情时,
我都会面对很多的问题,我每次从口说就很简单,
我每次安慰朋友和鼓励,我都是用口说,
正真当我面对问题的时侯,
想找个人也无法成功.
谁能鼓励下我吗...?

坐摩托经过卖冰的地方,
向老板要了一杯cendui,
突然我看到ABC比cendui贵一块,
然后我问老板是不是ABC好喝一点,
那我要的cendui换去ABC,
可是老板对我说,
if u take away,then better choose cendui,
ABC is nice,u can see the ice like mountain,
but is suitable for a crowd of friends,
u can taste ABC,
also can chat with your friends.
that is enjoy....

老板这句话,
让我明白了,
如果一样不适合自己的东西,
我勉强以为它适合我的胃口,
但其实是我自己少了些过程.

我会努力...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

07/10/2009

新房间搞到我有些不习惯,

由其是在睡觉的时候,


其实是自己在下午睡太多,


所以晚上迟迟都不能入睡。


以前我在这种情况下,


我会回想起一个人,


一个很想和她聊天的人,


可是她是不会理会我的。


我的病又回来了。。。


和eddie吃了午餐后,


我便到学校上课然后回serdang,


因为明天和后天都没上课,


今天我们在班上等待老师的到来,


我们等了很久,


每个老师经过都不是,


我们半小时便离开。


我和阿li到canteen2那申请DIGI CAMPUS,


大致上的INFORMATION我都知道了,


因为健毅也是用这个配套.


搭火车回家竟然让我发觉人心善恶,


有一位马来妇女的行李箱突然倒了,


在那的马来同胞都不愿帮忙一下,


我看见她们在我看你你看我的,


若无其事的假装站在那儿不帮忙。


还有一位马来女子,


她竟然粗鲁到像个大哥呢。。。


我对坐在我隔壁的女孩感到害羞


明明有很多位子


她是要坐我这,


还对我有些亲密的关系。。。


吓倒我


大哥和我到the mines的电话店,


找他的朋友进sortware和聊天。

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

06/10/2009

无聊的一天

今天只有上一课和一小时,
真的很闷当在第一星期,
老师Pn.Nik 看起来很好,
可是没个老师都是一样,
开始时是如此的认真,
后来就如此的随便。

这一课还没正真开始上,
只是介绍老师和给info而已,
完毕后我们本来要讨论到哪玩,
可是Annis又约了人,
我们只好到CITC online
mona,eddie和我而已,
zack and simon又去打机呢!

我每次online都会注意她,
可是我看不到她的blog,
不知道她发生什么事在每一天。
只能看她的照片而已。

心感同情,爱莫难做
吃东西遇见一位老人乞丐,
还是学生的我没钱帮助他,
真难做人。

卖板面的女孩很nice,
害到我一直和她玩,哈哈。

05/10/2009

放假后开学的第一天

哥哥飞摩托载我到火车站搭火车,
他飞那么快让我觉得他比我更赶,
在火车站我错过了七点半的火车,
因为非常多的人拥挤在这辆火车,
没有办法的我只好等下一班火车。

我眼看着时间一分一秒的过去,
下一班的火车还没来人已增加,
KTM那儿的火车时间表又不对,
在担心会不会迟到的我在焦急,
突然火车来了可是是有限地点,
而我不知道就这样上了这火车。

这班火车是辆用在长途路的,
有餐厅有舒服的椅子的设备,
这辆火车直通到KL central ,
方便又省时间和不用拥挤。

最好的火车还是LRt,
每三分钟来一倘,
错过了也不用害怕,
有位残障女人士不小心撞到我,
我想好心的帮助她上火车,
最后由尽责的工作人员帮助了她。

到达学校的我遇见simon他们,
they told me lectures cancel today,
but I already reached college,
so I just have to do is info my friends,
eddie reached college already,
and the others friends also reached.

朋有们有的回家有的像我们,
到新开的Wangsa Walk逛街,
irein负责载小颖和她两位朋友,
ah ki则负责载eddie和我两男。

Wangsa Walk暂时还不用付parking,
由于这间是刚开不久没东西逛,
所以我们很快就离开,
选择到Seri Rampai oldtowm吃东西,
在那里我们聊了三小时多的话题,
从不觉得闷也觉得不陌生的我们,
真开心。

过后我回我的新家休息睡觉,
突然外面传来有女孩的笑声,
我就醒来一会儿,
原来是阿莲她们,
偷看我在睡觉后,
就离开了还把我吵醒。

晚上我和建毅到她们的屋子,
拿回我们的橱柜和在那看戏。

04/10/2009喝茶二

彩玉今天突然约我们出来喝茶,
我问她有谁的时候,
她又没回答我,
弄到我这位习惯别人载的我,
要亲自驾摩托来!

来到山顶的嘛嘛档的我,
觉得怎么好像没有她们的人影,
然后看到子康来了,
接下来是智浩和阿论。
人数慢慢的增加,
添龙和他女友彩玉,
静意和婉慧佩婉,
依明和振贤。

不知道怎么了,
我竟然没有话想对她说了,
不知道这是我成功的
走出放弃她的道路了吗?
我默默的看着她,
因为我很久没看过她了。

他/她们竟然计划下个trip,
我都快晕了,哈哈!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

我的新居

我的新居在Genting Klang,Prima Setapak

刚租的新房,
是间可以看好风景
是间可以享受泳池
小房而已


和朋友健毅租下的小房,
是为了以后的读书方便,
不用我们从老远的地方,
每天赶时间赶火车来回。

这次我们租的小房,
里面什么东西都没有,
就连普通的基本要求
冽如:风扇,床架,衣柜都没有。。。
不比得起以前我们租的中房,
里面已经是满足我的需求了,

可是有一好就有二坏。


我们把我们的东西搬迁到那里,
这次有security man帮忙我们按电梯,
所以比上次搬迁用的时间快多了,
还有租房间的男孩也有帮忙一下,
很nice。。。

我们design我们的房间和要摆放的东西,
就和housemates聊起天来,
可是我很cool每有话跟她们聊....


afterthat,我们到Berjaya Time Square,
因为健毅需要帮他哥哥拿电脑.
逛下逛下健毅竟然被SubWay restaurant吸引,
我们就进去闯一闯,
我们有够好笑,
因为不会order,

first,要选面包,我选hearty italian,
健毅则是选名字最长的,
second,选料,
健毅说了chicken teriyaki,
我没说,工作人员就自己来,
third,选疏菜和浆料,
疏菜我们也没说,
工作人员就自己来,
浆料则选BBQ &Mayounis.
完成...!!
付钱竟然RM20,
吓倒...


品赏品赏觉得在吃
sandwiches+salads+fresh vegetable
蛮不错


健毅买了一条链送给他的心上人,
第一次买链的他,
有我陪同下,
是不能的....
因为我忙着逗女孩....哈哈
买了后,不停说心痛。。。哈哈

Friday, October 2, 2009

喝茶

今天是星期五
又是和朋友约会出去喝茶的时候了。

我们每次喝茶都是在同个老地方的嘛嘛档
因为我们有的是学生,有的则是打工仔,
所以我们从来不讲求到稍微贵的cafe喝茶
因为我们觉得嘛嘛档才是我们的聊天天堂

今天我抱着满满的好心情和朋友喝茶,
因为今天我们有个新成员加入
她就是出名放我们飞机的佩珊哈哈
她是我们之中非常难约的朋友,
每次都有介口来拒绝我们。
但是这次她能出席,
我们已经原谅了她吧。哈哈
欢迎加入我们这大家庭。
(智浩,骏和,家良,万英,voilet,小贝,orange,和佩珊)

新成员佩珊加入,
她自己一定很不习惯,
因为我看得出她是有些connect不到,
慢慢来吧。

今天喝茶我很不高心
喝茶
我最闷是看到我们的成员没有话谈,
因为这样的感觉看起来很冷门,
而我就很喜欢帮成员们找话题,
无论成员们把我当谈天的话柄
叫我不要吵都好,我都没关系

但是这次我真的生气
因为我真的有需要问,
所以我就问,
可是成员们都不太认真,
甚至有叫我不要吵

这一些话都让我很不愉快
虽然我没说,但不代表我什么都能哽

可能成员们都觉得我的性格不好
可是我没有想过什么来辩解
因为我不介意
因为我们是朋友

我真的很没有mood

Thursday, October 1, 2009

一切都是烦

为了搬迁的事情觉得很烦很烦

这次我们租的这一间房间,
虽然是比上次我们的便宜,
但是这房间没以前的宽大,
因为我们这次的是租小房

房间里面什么都没有,
我们简直就是用钱租间空房

由于那间房间我自己都没有看过
一切我都交给我朋友做主意
可是我给的一切劝告他都没接受,
我都不知道他是怎么想

朋友你要知道租哪个地方是比较适合,
学校附近的地方怎样都比那里好。

不知道要怎么说了,
我从来都没有对朋友自私
我希望朋友也不要那对我,
如果要的话,

我临愿回到童年。

Monday, September 28, 2009

感觉消失了

回忆以前如果我都没有对她坦白的话
我们的感情是否变得像这样的冷淡呢。。。

以前我们的感情很好很好
因为当时我们是非一般的朋友关系,
直到我想自私的拥有她,
结果我们的关系就从很好很好慢慢的改变

其实我想对她说我真的很爱很爱她,她会不会相信和接受,
其实我想对她说我可以为她付出我的一切一切来呵护照顾着她,

但是不知道她是故意还是无心的对我的爱表现得不理不睬,
我的爱就好象被隔着一副墙,我的心被狠狠的刺痛了。。。好痛
我真的累了。。。

有人说,爱一个人就应该懂得放手, 让她往更幸福的地方出发,

我真想忘记和放弃所有她的一却因为我真的太爱她
虽然有一段时间我可能会很舍不得她,
但请原谅我为了保护你我的心不再受伤
我选择了放手决定了让我安静的离开她

幸福和开心的记忆我都会永远记得在脑里,
空闲的时候拥有一些回忆这样我就足够满足了。

在孤单的时候我不再期望会有谁给我理睬因为她已不在了,
以前和现在都一样,
伤心和不愉快的时候我不再期望会有谁安慰我和关心我,
以前和现在都一样,
我知道我越想你我会越痛但是就是停止不了对你的思念,
以前和现在都一样。

我会努力勇敢地走下去,因为我不想看见我爱的她那么累。

其实她没有欠我什么,
只是我还欠她一句。。。对不起。。。

对不起。。。
我不应该自私的想伤害你,让你觉得很累,
我不应该假装的说离开你,让你失去依赖,
我不应该固执的要留下你,让你感觉危难,
我不应该傻气的说等待你,让你免强笑容,
原来我对你做了许多让你觉得厌倦的事情。

多希望能再给我一次机会

27.09.2009

唱k遇上高手



起身的时候,已经是12,1点了
我吃完了午餐,子康和婷姐才问我要不要出去吃烧卖
反正在家无所事事的我,不访和他们出去走走游车行。
没有告诉我几点到的他们,竟然说来就来
还好我早就准备好了,不是的话,就要他们等我



两点多由子康载我们出发到大城堡那吃点心


两点多去到,还有什么点心店可以开到那么晚,


大部分的都关了,因为在3点至6点之间的时间,


好不容易才找到一间,我们叫了我们不知道的点心吃,

因为好吃的都在早上买完了




婷姐每次都叫她最爱的流沙包


据说流沙包里面是由金黄色的蛋黄。。。弄的,


咬了一口,金黄色的蛋黄。。。往下流,


所以人人都称着为流沙包。




子康什么东西都喜欢吃的,


他也叫了出名的鸡窝包来品赏


据说鸡窝包里是用锣米鸡弄的,也蛮不错。




我们已经plan好了晚上去Green Box唱k


因为我们没有事情做在子康家做客一会儿,


就出发,也是子康载。
刚吃饱没多久的我们,


子康竟然拿非常多的食物,


我觉得我好像把垃圾吃进去那样


我都快要吐了




我们三个人唱歌,


不用争唛可风,哈哈。。。


婷姐的唱功真利害


我和子康遇上高手了。
我又疯疯癫癫的过一天了。

Saturday, September 26, 2009

26sep09 malacca trip

这一次的马六甲一日游,可以说是有喜有悲

我们在两个星期之前,已经开始了我们的trip,
因为子康,婷姐,智浩他们都有工作在这一天,
为了去玩散心,所以他们必须要向公司请假,
然后我们在可以千山万水的安心去完成我们的trip.

说道这次的trip,我们真的真的过了五蒋,闯了五关,
是因为很多很多不辛的事情发生在子康和婷姐身上,
而我就被part time那工作的老板为难我要代替子康和婷姐工作,
因为我们都是工作在同一间公司.

一开始我以为我们的trip就这样玩完,
可是我们最后也有办法去我们的trip,
因为...秘密...

我们(子康,婷姐,智浩,虾米和我)从两点出发由智浩用他的爱车viva载我们到马六甲,
途中我们看了很多本地图,
子康用他的GPS地图search,
看了很多路牌,
猜测了很多遍,一人一句,
从Ayer Keroh进,
最后用了一小时多到达目的地.

过后我们乱乱闯,我们在Jalan Quayside附近那parking,
然后弃车行走到A Formosa古城门,
那里很有古时代的feel,
那里有条街的建筑不是红色就是使用红色的灯光来布置,真的很美.

我们到Christ Church基督教堂和Butch Graveyard荷兰人墓地.
在Christ Church基督教堂,我们可以看到很多古代的荷包车,
工作人员都把荷包车布置到很美,
而且还很rock的音乐在他们的荷包车,
有许多游客都会选择做这些荷包车,
到处去玩,到处去参观.
我们是年轻人,所以我们选择走路到自己想去的地方玩,到处拍照.

到Butch Graveyard荷兰人墓地参观,
那儿有古时打仗所用的飞机,火车,大炮,救火车等等,
也有很多古迹的东西留下,也有人在那唱歌,唱歌的人还骂人呢....

我们回到A Formosa古城门那逛逛走走,
子康被和尚催眠帮和尚买了佛牌,哈哈...

然后我们到了间很有旧风味的店吃冰冰,
很小的店但是却摆放了许多古老和珍藏的东西,
虾米和婷姐还拿别人的古老和珍藏的东西拍照,
最后被赶出来,paiseh....哈哈

我们到马六甲一要使他们的鸡粒饭,
但是整条街都有许多无论是出名还是不出名的鸡粒饭餐馆,
我们都头晕晕不知道哪个才是正中,
听说有一间很好吃的鸡粒饭餐馆,
当我们去到时却关了卖完了,
没有办法之下,我们唯有选择另一间.

我们不知道鸡粒饭有多大粒,
子康就叫了25粒鸡粒饭,两菜一饭,
我觉得还可以关于他们这间的鸡粒饭.

那儿夜晚竟然有夜市,而且还很热闹很多东西吃,
我们吃冰条,状元糕等等...
还有老人家在唱歌还很hot呢...也有人在卖艺,超利害....!!
我们在三叔公那买马六甲的特产,智浩买不到他的榴莲糕...可怜....

我们到Plaza Pahlawan Melaka那,
剩坐Menara Taming Sari的高塔看马六甲的风景,
还美还高呢....

原来Eyes of Malaysia在马六甲了,
当它在titiwangsa时,我错过了机会,没想到这次也是错过了....

回家的路途真的辛苦,
走错了很多地方因为夜晚了,
我们竟然到seremban游了很大的圈,问了很多人,当迷路了也可以问油站的人的...哈哈
走新路回家,竟然只有我们一辆车....

但是也蛮开心对这次的马六甲trip

Friday, September 25, 2009

祝她19岁生日快乐

她的生日,我竟然选择了工作
而没有对她的生日做出什么样的表示
不帮她庆祝生日的念头使我这到底是不是我啊。。。!

我蒙骗自己对自己说,没关系,因为我知道没有了我
她也有愉快的生乐,因为还有许多徘徊在她身边的朋友
会比我更快一步地帮她庆祝生日
而我就像被隔着幅墙,她永远都不会知道我有存在

她生日当天,有一些朋友选在我工作地点那庆祝生日
我正在忙碌的时间,我看着从她朋友的车下来,
一路沿着她想去的方向,这时我不知道该如何是好
因为我该向她说些什么话来停止她一路往前,
结果最后我也没有什么表示

今年她19岁生日,
我只能向天祝福
我只能发个信息
我只能拨个电话
祝福她永远幸福
祝福她永远愉快

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

回忆带来伤痛

翻开我以往所写的日记簿和所拍的相簿,
每一页每一行都记录着她的名字,和她的快乐回忆,及悲伤的和痕迹。
而相簿里,我们只有少许的照片当作回忆。
原因是因为当时的我,对已经有男朋友的她,
有着想追求的信念,所以造成我们之间的关系变淡了.
可能这些回忆都让她难受和带来很多不便伤害.

原谅当时的我不能阻止和控制自己而带来许许多多的麻烦.

我的固执使我不能接受每一次被你拒绝的结果,
被你拒绝我真的很难受很想寻找个安静的地方,
让我一直存在着心里的难受释放出来,我真的很伤心,
我不但每一次都制造假的希望给我这固执的人,
还每一次相信她在给机会我和还在等待我,
其实这全都是我自己用来安慰自己的假象.

我不能接受虚假的事实,我是个可怜的人,
当我自己就连虚假也不敢去承担和面对,每天还要抱着假的希望,
发着假的梦,有着很好的睡眠和度过我的人生生活.

我尝试孤单勇敢的接受这一切成为事实的时候,
我竟然忍不住正在围绕着我眼睛的眼泪.
我在每一个晚上我都强逼自己不能够想她,可惜当我想起这全部都是虚假的事实时,
我竟迟迟的不能入睡,眼睛在黑暗的环境打开,没有目标,也不知道要找谁.

我真的好累好想在没有人的地方痛哭的一场,
可惜无论我有多痛苦多不开心,我都无法痛一场,
因为我的内心在痛,在流泪.

固执真的让我受到很深很深的伤害,有人一定会说我自己找来的因果,
也有人一定会说我自己活该,甚至我自己都原谅不了自己的过错.
我总会在朋友和她面前若无其事的过着快乐的生活,
但有谁知道当派对结束了后剩下我一个人的时候,我竟然不停的回想起她,
我不能彻地的忘记她.

家良啊...!!家良啊...!!难道你真的没有听说过,傻瓜才会把自己的青春和时间浪费在,
一个已经不爱你的人吗?!傻瓜??我临愿成为别人所说的傻瓜,
不断的为我喜欢的她默默的付出,默默的看着她开心快乐,只要默默的,
这已让我心满足了.